Here is a snap of my brain at work. I am following my guardian angel down my apartment hallway to my bedroom where I will get into my bed with my now ‘not so normal’ cat, Emma, and I will fall asleep and said guardian angel, now named Fred, will watch over me until I wake up tomorrow morning…OMG!!!!
AND…he will continue to watch over me for the rest of my entire life.
AND…I will see him in action and no one else will.
AND…if I tell anyone, they will either lock me up…or send me somewhere with…you know…padded walls and people who always smile at you.
AND…FRED WILL BE THERE WITH ME!!! WATCHING. OVER. ME…….FOR FUCKING EVER!!!!
And yet…and yet…I feel strangely peaceful and calm as I begin my normal sleep ritual.
First lying on my right side and then turning over to my left side where I fall asleep instantly…as I have done for 24 years.
“Tobey!!! Wake up!!! The fire alarm is going to go off in a couple of minutes. You have to leave now.”