The Paperback Edition…
The next morning, after my call, Mel had rushed over to my apartment.
After a big, loving hug…she asked, “Why did your mom do this, Sam? Why did she hate Bobby so much?”
I backed away and walked into the kitchen and sat down at the breakfast bar. I just shook my head. Mel followed and started water to boil on the stove.
“I don’t know, Mel. I have no idea. I think when she looked at Bobby…she saw Victor…”
“Your dad, right?”
“Yes. My dad was such a charmer…just like Bobby. I think she thought she was protecting me somehow…”
“Oh, Sam…I am so sorry.” Melanie said with so much love in her voice I started to cry again.
“I’ll get us some tea. You’ll feel better.”
We took our tea…and some cookies that Mel had found in the pantry, walked into the living room and sat down on the floor…backs up against the sofa, looking out onto the sunny courtyard outside my apartment window…and watched the squirrels play.
Mel was carefully paging thru the diary and shaking her head. “This is just too tragic.”
“Are you planning to do something? Mel asked softly after the cookies and tea were gone.
“What do you mean…?” I asked.
“I mean…are you planning to show this to Bobby?”
Of course, that had been the first thing I had thought too…but then…cold reality had set in and I had brushed that thought from my mind.
I hadn’t heard anything about Bobby for years…even though we all lived within a few suburbs of each other. I had always avoided the shopping center where he and his dad owned their hardware store.
But I knew he had gotten married…six months after I married Russ. But that was all I knew. That was all I had ever waned to know. I opened up the diary, aimlessly flipping the pages.
“I can’t Mel. I don’t want to cause any trouble for him or his family…I just…can’t.” I wiped away more tears that had started to fall.
“But..then…” I continued, “He should know, right? He should know that it wasn’t my doing…he should know the truth.” I picked up the letter and then let it fall softly to the carpet.
“I just don’t know…” I murmured…tears falling on my empty hands.
“I have something to tell you, Sam.” Mel said quietly and then she reached over and gently picked up both of my hands…