Had to tell someone…
My 78 year old husband and I live in a good sized apartment…open living room, dining room and kitchen concept.
I had been putting away groceries and he was watching TV (duh).
But then I walked into my bedroom to do…whatever…not important… and I hear his voice calling, “Tina?”
I walked out into the living room and said, “Did you want something?”
“Oh. I knew you were putting away groceries but then it got real quiet.”
Him: “I wanted to know if you were dead…so I wouldn’t trip over you.”
HOWEVER…every time I jump on the scale…I see the 130.8 & and then it settles on 131.0. I cut 3″ off my hair yesterday so I was REALLY…HOPEFULLY…expecting good news!!!! Oh well…there’s always tomorrow…of course, until there isn’t! HAH!!!
Have a nice day…
So…here’s the deal. I cut my hair.
I figured “how hard could it be?”
I figured “just a little snip here…and…there…”
It’s the only explanation I can offer…since yesterday I took a hour and a half nap, did not walk because the dew point was…like 150…and I had an extra half popsicle because it was Monday.
Truth in Telling: My avatar is slightly exaggerated…
Have a nice day…
It was a dark and stormy night. (See first paragraph, Chapter 2)
I had arrived home about 9:30 and greeted most lovingly by my devoted cat, Emma.
“How are you Tobey? Are you well? Are you going to feed me rather soon?”
Of course, she doesn’t really talk like that…I’m not crazy.
She is much more polite than that.
“Yes, yes. Hang on a second. Just let me get my coat and boots off.”
I lived very close to The Book Shop. I did so because I have no car and have chosen to try to do without one for a while
To say I was trying to “go off the grid” would not be true but I was trying to do…something like it…but less drastic.
So now I watch very little TV. Maybe the news on CNN…if I’m feeling brave…and of course who can pass on “The Housewives of New York City” for heaven’s sake.
I go on-line about an hour a day but try to avoid it completely on the week ends.
But much to my surprise, after doing this for about five months I felt absolutely no different…which I thought odd.
I expected to feel more “Zen-like”. Peaceful. Centered. But did not. And “Housewives” was wrapping up their season.
Maybe I needed to come up with a ‘new plan’.
I graduated from the University of Minnesota this past Spring with a degree in English. Considering that I had no desire to teach, it wasn’t very useful…but people were impressed for some reason…”Wow, an English Major…wow…” and then they could not find anything else to say…but nonetheless I had the damn degree.
I had lost contact with all school friends as we had all gone our separate ways, mostly to different states and of course promising to keep in touch. We had not.
I had no boyfriend and no prospects. sigh.
Both parents were dead. I had one sibling, sister Karlie, who was two years older than me. She was delightfully married to George and very busy with 1-year old toddler, Annie and a little mutt named Cantor.
I lived in a luxury (read that safe) apartment in a luxury (also read safe) suburb because even though it was very tragic and sad that my parents had both died young…they had left a really sick amount of money to be shared equally between me and sister, Karlie…but not until we BOTH turned 30.
So, in the meantime we had also been given a “nice” sum of money that lawyers doled out to each of us every month…to see us through to the big payoff.
Don’t hate me.
My parents, Iris and Rain, or “The Parents” as they later became known, loved the wealthy, carefree lifestyle that only piles of money can buy. Apparently, “The Great Gatsby” had made a big impression on both of them when they were young and…well…impressionable.
Lucky for them, many dazzling but solid investments made by Rain’s father and grandfather, assured The Parents they would never, ever have to work…but must always give generously to worthy charities…which they did quite happily.
They loved me and my sister very much. There was never any doubt about that and of course, we adored them.
However, they just didn’t like the idea of ‘parenting’…and unfortunately did not quite realize that until about 5 hours after Karlie was born.
Grandma Sylvia moved in before the next sunset and when I accidentally (go figure) appeared two years later…well…no worries.
Grandma Sylvia drank red wine during the week and whiskey sours on the weekends. She was also fond of those little sweet-smelling cigars and Maria Callas.
She was beyond brilliant, spoke French, Spanish and Chinese and most importantly loved Karlie and me to the moon and back. She took pretty good care of The Parents as well.
Sadly, she died when I was thirteen.
The Parents could not find one other adult relative they could trust or entice with large sums of money to become a “foster” parent to us, so they rashly decided “what the hell, let’s give it a go.”
“What could go wrong?” they told us confidently.
The Parents’ first attempt at ‘parenting’ was to volunteer at my 7th grade “Welcome Back” school dance which incidentally was my first foray into “socializing” on a grander scale than play dates with neighborhood kids. Some memories are best not shared.
Two weeks before the dance, The Parents descended unannounced upon a clueless Principal Nelson (such a nice, normal man).
He had previously been informed when Karlie began 7th grade that the parents of Karlie and Tobey Carlson had been tragically killed on their third attempt to climb Mt. Everest.
The Parents had bravely tried to rescue their loyal Sherpa who had fallen into a deep crevasse. All three bodies were never recovered…so Karlie and younger sister Tobey were now being lovingly raised by a grandma named Sylvia…so you just call her if anything comes up.
This compellingly sad tale had been created by our highly imaginative grandma after a couple of glasses of Cabernet Sauvignon. Both Karlie and I thought it was a sound plan and we all agreed that there was no reason whatsoever to mention this to The Parents…ever.
But now…The Parents told the puzzled Mr. Nelson, that “Yes! Of course we’re Tobey’s parents! Who else would we be?”
And they added for good measure, “We’re Karlie’s parents too!” They figured this further claim would seal the deal.
A hesitant and slightly confused Principal Nelson said he “would see if they would be needed.”
It should have ended there but The Parents were now on a mission and made sure of being ‘needed’ by donating $100,000 to renovating the teachers’ lounge. They were more than ‘needed’…they were revered.
Imagine riding a roller coaster with no safety bar to hold you in place…that was my life for the next 6 years…